I hate you.  But I love you even more, no matter how many times you make me cry.  And I don't think anyone understands how much it is.  You're the only person I can ever picture myself with.   You're the only one that can even understand why I am the way I am... but that still isn't even enough.  I feel like such a horrible person and all I really want is for once for you to understand how I feel about you.  I seriously would do anything for you.  Wait and find another girl like me, because I know you won't find it.  Its so hard sitting here and loving you so much but not feeling that back.... I'm so overwhelmed but I know your life is ten times harder, so I feel like I'm stuck.  Stuck on the outside waiting for you to be ready for me.  I will wait for you, I promise.  I don't care about all this shit thats going on, I care so much and I love you so much.  You're not perfect, but I don't care.  I just love you. I know you think this will never work, but I don't know what else to do.... I can't live without you, I've tried.