Things have been pretty crazy lately. Wednesday me and Emilie woke up and got drunk at like 12:30 in the morning and went swimming and hung out at the Ranch House all day. And went into Anthony's a couple times, haha. And then we went and saw Danny. It was so crazy seeing him again, its just weird he's been gone for so long. We hung out with him and Chris for a little bit again this morning too. It sucks Emilie is grounded tonight or else we'd probably hang out with them again tonight, just like old times. Its weird though, he's turning himself in on Monday, so he'll be going to jail for about a year he thinks. That'll suck, but at least we got to see him before he leaves.
I decided that things with Cole just aren't going to work. I mean, I knew all along that in the end I'd just have to say goodbye, but I was hoping to just have fun while it lasted... but I also know I can't fuck everything else up for a little bit of fun. He's such a cute, sweet guy... and I love how he just makes me feel like I actually matter... but I know he also doesn't wanna get attached as much as I don't want to either. Hopefully we'll still be friends until he leaves though because I love hanging out with him, he's adorable.
And in the end, its better that I end things with that now so I'm not fucking Brenden over. I honestly didn't think that there was anything there... but he was so cute the other night! We're gunna take things slow so we don't fuck anything up. I love just being able to talk to him and hang out without there being any pressure or awkwardness... because thats usually how I get with guys. But not with him and its nice. The only problem is telling Brian... but thats his problem I guess.